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From Ninja L's blog:

I am someone who thought she knew where she was in life, what she was doing and where she was going but last year ('04) realised that things can get so bad in life sometimes- when you realise that the people who you thought were your closest friends turned out to be not at all what you thought they'd be... Either cause they changed through life's cynical experiences or maybe you yourself changed and have different expectations of them... In this ever changing world. This year however,I picked up the pieces of my life, and am thoroughly living it... Living it better than I have my entire life... The most common thought in my mind last year- "People can't be trusted and the world around me sucks..." The most common thought this year- "Surviving each day isn't really living" ... Happy to say that I am LIVING it :)

I read her personal description on her blog, and it intrigued me so much I decided to post what I read here. You know what? I can't believe I hesitated to say it, but... She's right. She's completely right. And I'm talking about the common thought she had last year. She is dead on right on that.

And why do I wholeheartedly agree with her?

Except for the part where she's currently living her life to the limits, I'm currently personally going through the other things she said (especially the first thing she talked about and the common thought she had in her mind last year), everything being proved to me firsthand.

There are many people in various places. You act differently towards
many. You're always searching for yourself. What kind of "you" do
you like? And what kind of "you" do you want to be? I hope you find
the right "you". Good luck to you.

Though we hope for promising years
After shedding a thousand tears,
Yesterday's sorrow constantly nears.

Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children, is the most exciting movie to hit the screens for every fan of the Final Fantasy genre. Yes, your fave FFVII characters are back. The only exception is of course, Aeris, who we only get some "teaser" views of what she would have looked like in some scenes.

I haven't seen the whole movie yet since Russell lent me his copy, but what I've seen so far is good. I think I've only view less than or around 20 minutes of disc one. Check out the screenshots I managed to find.


A slighty grown up Marlene with Tifa


Cloud finds an injured Tifa


Does the scenery look familiar? Well, that's cause it's Aeris's church!


Vincent Valentine looks as good as I imagined. *Hehe*


Even The Turks make an appearance

More screenshots to come! I'll post up my review of the movie when I'm finally done watching it too. Sad to say, I don't know when exactly that will be. x_x

Excuse me for not blogging out all my thoughts.

Life's not going well for me at the moment. I don't want to say things out of my mixed up emotions and later on, regret it. (Which we all know I surely will) Therefore, I'm going to keep everything to myself for now, until... I don't know when. It's anyone's guess, for it could be ages before I manage to sort myself out.

Define dream:-

* a series of mental images and emotions occurring during sleep;
* ambition: a cherished desire;
* imaginative thoughts indulged in while awake;
* pipe dream: a fantastic but vain hope (from fantasies induced by the opium pipe);
* a state of mind characterized by abstraction and release from reality;
* have a daydream; indulge in a fantasy;
* someone or something wonderful;
* experience while sleeping;

Define end:-

* the point in time at which something ends;
* the concluding parts of an event or occurrence;
* a final state;
* the part you are expected to play;
* a boundary marking the extremities of something;
* conclusion: the last section of a communication;
* bring to an end or halt;

In short, what I'm trying to say is, "This dream has come to an end".
That's all for today, folks.

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I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight

And I can't stand the pain
And I can' make it go away
No I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I wanna start this over again

So I try to hold onto a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No I can't

How could this happen to me
I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I made my mistakes
I've got no where to run
The night goes on
As I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Welcome To My Life

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Before I get completely self-absorbed, happy birthday to Grace!

Today was.... I don't know how to define it. What I answered to Leon when he asked me this question on MSN was that it was "uneventful". Whatever that means.

I slept early in the morning, think 5 a.m. or so, (What can I say? I'm crazy about FF9) only to be woken up by a call from Girlie less than five hours later to go for breakfast. Needless to say, I dragged myself out of bed and went out anyways. Cause & effect? I felt sleep deprived for the most of the day.

I've begun to realise certain things... I mean, I did have a talk with Girlie & Roy today, but most of what they told me is nothing new. Nothing which I don't already know, (No offense, you guys) but I choose to ignore because with the way my state of mind is nowadays, it's easier. Which is supposed to explain my usual behavior nowadays. Anyway...

After I got home, I started pondering on some other things which I thought were this way only to be whacked in the head with the realisation of how they're really NOT that way. It hurts, waking up to the truth that things were not like how I believed them to be in my mind. I'm just trying to accept things for what they are right now. I've been down in the dumps for the past few days, so what's it hurt to be down for another day?

Went to watch the Transporter 2 eventhough I wasn't feeling up to it in the beginning. It was raining and the weather was just so good for catching up on some Zzz's... I was on the verge of cancelling when I remembered the RM7 I already forked out for the ticket.

However, the movie surprised me. It's generally action all the way, right from the start of the movie. Granted, most of the stunts don't make sense, and Lola's body looks so unnatural. Basically, all she wears throughout the movie is lingerie.


Frank starts kicking butt from the first scene


Kate Nauta stars as the half-naked Lola


Jason Statham as Frank. A friend said he did his own stunts

It's OK. I mean, it's surely not gonna win any Academy Awards, but it's passable. I do prefer watching it over say... Sky High. Amoz organized this movie outing, and the only people who went were me, Girlie, Lionel, Rosie & his younger brother, Abraham.

Afterwards, we ate dinner at a western food restaurant opposite Lintas Square. We debated on watching a second movie or playing pool after that, but since it was past 10pm, we decided a movie would take too long. Oh man, never did I do so badly at pool in my life. Not that I'm a good player, but basically I just couldn't sink in the ball.

Anybody wanna offer me some tips? You're more than welcome.

For your convenience...

I've re-opened Glitter Effect (my other blog hosted on Blogger) for those who find the layouts I normally use on Blurry Intentions to be slow in loading. Basically, the content wise, things will be the same. So feel free to choose your preferred poison out of the two. ^-^

I've added some friend's & Fn'WM (the youth group of CCC KK) youth who blog on Friendster. I confess that the blogs don't look great in terms of looks, but hey, they're my friends anyway. It's all on the navigation to your left.

I just wanted to have a good cry after reading several blogs of people whom I know. I have been so caught up in myself and my own problems lately to notice that there are so many people around me who feel the same, I just never cared, never paid attention. So immersed was in my feelings of resentment and bitterness towards some people.

I always seem to forget that the world does not revolve around me and whatever I'm going through, someone has already, is going through it, or will one day go through it. Life like that. So in a way, I really should learn, and maybe one day I could help the next person who goes through it.

Earlier on today I truly, honestly, prayed to God for the first time in how many months. I was angry, and I was disappointed towards God, and somehow I felt like I had been bitten by the hand that feeds me. (I don't really care for this term, but I couldn't think of any other, sorry!) It was only today that I decided that I can't let all that I'm feeling continue on taking over my life.

I don't believe that I'm now totally ok, but I believe that's the first step, one of the many that I know have to take if I want to get my life back on track.

X-Men rejects indeed!

I was, so to speak, excited at the thought of Sky High when I first heard of it. I know that the idea wasn't new, but I guess my hankering for next year's X-Men 3 is making me interested at any superhero movie that pops up before then. So... I watched it with Girlie on Tuesday afternoon.

It was kinda impromptu, I originally had planned to watch The Myth on Monday night but because Girlie couldn't make it at the time, and we were short of drivers, I had to cancel it. I re-scheduled it for the next night, which Girlie couldn't make it again, and so she offered to bring me out to watch it in the afternoon.

Since I had to make a raincheck (again!) on The Myth, I decided to watch Sky High instead and watch what I wanted to watch in the first place on Thursday night, if all things went well. So here's my two cents on Sky High.


The rejected and unpopular sidekicks


The popular clique of "hero's"... Or shall I say heroine's?


Mary Elizabeth Winstead as Gwen, the object of Will's affections


Girlie & I agreed that Layla's dress here is gorgeous!

Despite having people like Kelly Preston (who is John Travolta's wife, by the way) and the former Wonder Woman Lynda Carter on board, they didn't manage to save the movie. The movie's script and storyline was poorly written to begin with, and it really did seem like they were the rejected ideas for all superhero stories ever written.

In the world of Sky High, you can only be one, a Hero or a Sidekick. And being a sidekick pretty much means the same as someone being called a nerd or geek. You are only required to "assist" the hero you are assigned to after you graduate and that hero will be the one to choose your sidekick name. Which makes one wonder, did Batman choose Robin's name? *Hehe*

Anyway... Will has the power of incredible strength and later on, flight. Which is pretty the usual powers a superhero has. (Think Superman, minus the weakness from Kryptonite) Layla has the power to grow trees. (Which explains why she prefers to wear green throughout the movie) Others have the power to glow (?), shapeshift into a guinea pig, and the power of stretching their body at will. (Think The Incredibles)

The movie was really a disappointment from the beginning, moving from scene to scene quickly and not having any fillers. No character developement, and really, the montley crue Will befriends turn out to be nothing more than the group they were termed with from the start: sidekicks.

Okay, despite all my ranting, it did have some rare fun moments. Like whenever Will sees Gwen, his mind starts playing the song "True" by the Cary Brothers & that's all he can hear. Me & Girlie had a good laugh about that cause it's quite true. A lot of teenagers experience that sort of thing nowadays. *Hehe*

If you really have to watch it, buy a pirated copy or borrow it from a friend or something. To be honest, I'd have rather watched The Longest Yard twice.

I'm too irritated, too annoyed at people in general to blog at the moment. I think it's for the best, cause I might say things that I most likely will regret later.

Yet another new layout... I haven't tweaked the connecting links yet, though. *Hehe* They're still using the previous layout. It's something different from what I'd normally use, another non-anime themed one. It doesn't work well on Mozilla Firefox, it's better than you use IE (Internet Explorer) when viewing it. Well... Hope you guys like it.

Taken after last Saturday's youth service. Yup, we're still trying to take a good picture of the four of us. *Hehe*


This one is ok... At least it's better than the one at McDonald's


Notice the peace signs? Tit for a tat! ^-^

We went to watch The Longest Yard. Sorry to those who couldn't make it due to the impossible time. Blame it on Growball! =^^=


Pretty flowers that Roy snapped at Angeline's house


Me, Girlie, Amelia, Roy & Lionel's shoes & sandals on display. Angeline's not in the picture cause she left to watch her second movie of the night

Good movie, by the way! You guys really should catch it!

It's funny how things go sometimes.

My recent & definitely not the 1st decision to forget a guy was going pretty well. I don't experience the quickening heartbeat, the usual nervousness, nor the expectant or hopeful air, when I'm around him anymore. In a sense, I can be myself. I won't lie & say I'm already completely over him, or say I don't throw the occasional quick glances towards him anymore, but hey, I'm getting there.

I got peeved off at someone today for calling me something I know I'm not. Let me get this clear: I never look at guys (even if I happen to be crushing on them or not) with the idea of "getting it on" or anything related to that. Use your brain before you start using a word which you don't even know the meaning of at other people.

Another thing I've realised today. Guys can be disgusting when they're being... Well, just guys. I brought up the topic of one girl with this guy, & the moment I mentioned her name, he said "What a big pair of *bleep*". Now, although I personally don'tlike the girl, I couldn't help but be offended. Do all guys look at girls like their sex objects? Please tell me, cause I'd really like to know.

I was never close to this guy in the first place, but as of today I've decided thatI don't think I'd want to know him. You know how you can feel either safe or uncomfortable with certain people? (I think girls would understand this question better) Anyway... Yeah, I wouldn't feel comfortable with this guy anymore. But then, I never was to begin with.

Sara tagged along with us after church & showed us her brother Genesis's DVD recorded performance at Australia's Curtin University Star Search last year. It was kinda cool. I loved the ideas & creativity they had. Makes me kinda miss being in college.

Our plan to go to the newly opened Kenny Rogers outlet didn't go as well. On top of the restaurant being full & that we had to make bookings so we'd hopefully get a seat, we were kinda late. Our plan was to meet up at 6pm, but by the time everyone got there & was fully seated, it was 7.30pm or so.

Apparently, most of the others didn't enjoy the meal either- no comment, cause there were those who came not invited by me, but not exactly unwelcome either. Basically, I can't be blamed for any of it. *Hehe* Check out the pictures.


Food! Glorious food!


The adorable Joyous


Uncle Jeremiah, Auntie Winnie & Aldous


Amelia, Joy & Angeline


Roy, Girlie, Sara & Me, doing something with my fork


You simply gotta love those muffins!


Purity rings... My Precioussssss

Kawaii!

Alright! After an awful long time, I finally managed to post for 6 days straight! (Admittedly not exactly full with details to the brim, but hey, it's a start!) I am so proud of myself... Yeah, right. *Hehe* Browse on down to check out all the pictures & stuff I managed to blog for this past week, if you haven't, ok?

By the way, Kenny Rogers Roasters has finally re-opened here! Yipee! We're going to bring Aldous over for his "last supper" before his PMR starts on Monday. =^^= Other possible activities? Rex has suggested that we watch The Longest Yard on Monday night, which is just perfect.

Oh yeah, Rodney's finally back from NS!